Urgh that conversation has got thinking about things alot lol But i think that people seem to think i dont think or feel anything :\ Im always the person people talk to but i dont think people get me or take me seriously when i talk to them D:
God ive just realised how much of a copy cat i am :\
i base the things i do, my goals, interests and shit on things im influenced by.
it seems like non of it comes from my own imagination… :\ i dont know why because i ALWAYS used to think for myself and follow my own dreams, but now its asif my dreams are just recycled versions of other peoples dreams.
Dont get me wrong, i love the things that i love but i feel like i wouldnt have these things at all if it werent for other people. I dont want to have to depend on other people :\
Its NYE and i really wanted to do something since its the big 2010 buttttttttttt im not well and i think that the smell of alcohol will actually kill me :P so im going to stay in with my mum and brothers :)
I suppose ill just have to make up for it next year since ill be 18 :D
“In my next life I want to live my life backwards. You start out dead and get that out of the way. Then you wake up in an old people’s home feeling better every day. You get kicked out for being too healthy, go collect your pension, and then when you start work, you get a gold watch and a party on your first day. You work for 40 years until you’re young enough to enjoy your retirement. You party, drink alcohol, and are generally promiscuous, then you are ready for high school. You then go to primary school, you become a kid, you play. You have no responsibilities, you become a baby until you are born. And then you spend your last 9 months floating in luxurious spa-like conditions with central heating and room service on tap, larger quarters every day and then Voila! You finish off as an orgasm!”—
Which was the best month for you? June - left school or September - started college :D Which month(s) was the worst? May?? What was the most significant thing that happened this year? Left school :) What person had the most impact on your life this year? Hmmm Richard :) Id probs have died if I had to start college on ma own D: What was the best concert that you attended? GREEN DAY!!!! What was your biggest challenge of 2009? GCSEs D: Your biggest regret? Missing opportunities What moment stands out to you the most? Prom or Greenday or Slam Dunk :) What band did you listen to the most? The Maine I think :D On a scale of 1-10, 2009 was: 9 :D
Meet anyone special? Special as in people ima be friends with for a while :) Get close to someone you didn’t expect to? Cant say I did tbh Have a boyfriend or girlfriend? Nope D: Have a relationship for more than 3 months? Nope Hook up with anyone, no strings attached? No Experience the death of a loved one? No thank God Get in a fight? Nope :) Lose a friend? Only in the sense of not staying in contact with them but thats bad enough D: Get drunk? Oh yes ;) Regret doing something? Nahhh Go to a concert? Yess!! :D Fall in love? Nah Fall out of love? Nah Get back together with an ex? Nope Enjoy being single? Not really lol Accomplish a goal? I think so? Learn something new? Yes :) Get arrested? Nope lol Break up with someone? Nope Get a tattoo? No but ive been wanting one Go to a party? Yep :)
The New Year: 2010
What will you be doing on New Year’s Eve: Ill be at home at this rate D: someone find me a party to go to!!! Will you kiss anyone at midnight? Probs not lol Who do you WANT to kiss at midnight? That would be telling haha What is your New Year’s resolution? To actually have one! Im so unmotivated I cba thinkin bout one cos i know it wont happen D: Did you keep your resolution from last year? I cant remember it :P LOL im well good Do you think things will be different in 2010? I hope so, that should be my resolution, to change things for the better :) What do you want most out of 2010? To change Do you think 2010 will be better than 2009? Ill try make it better :) Im turning 18 and ive got some great new friends and theres some crackin gigs ;D so Im sure it will :) Anything you are particularly looking forward to? Turnin 18!! woop woop Oh and that hugee time off we have for summer ;D